ok, so i'm not very good at this blogging thing. It would seem i'm suppose to write AT LEAST once a week, but really, people, my life isnt THAT lively that there would be much to write about ;-)
I sleep alot, have good and bad days *like most people* and try get through every day whether it is thrown at me or gently gliding by.
My last NYC went swiftly and almost seems like so so so long ago already.
Young Nesselhut was there with Dr Chang and they were their usual wonderful bubbly positive selves and charming as ever. Dr Chang distracted me with stories of Disneyland (as explained i was going there with my daughter in a few weeks) and he swiftly administered the needles accordingly. This time, both were done in quick succession after each other.
After which, my friend Stu (who accompanied me on the trip) made sure i was tucked up safely back in my hotel, there after i feel asleep watching tv and awoke the next day feeling ok.
I stayed on in NYC for a few more days ensuring there was no ill side effects and that i could function as normal *whatever 'normal' is suppose to be these days ha ha!*

We then jetted off to Los Angeles (where Stuarts partner Chen joined us) and the three of us went to play in Vegas for a few days! FUN FUN FUN. but no, i did not win, nor *pick up* or score or any other term of good fortune you name ha ha but did see Bette Midler "the Show girl must go on" performance, highly recommended.
I'm now in Los Angeles and hanging out in California for a few weeks, debating what / where to be until my next visit to NYC. With the Swine flu being pandemic it does concern me and my travel plans as i am suppose to fly back to Singapore before my next NYC trip, though i am now seriously re-considering this and weighing in other options.
As my daughter is on school holidays, there is no rush for us to be home, hence our open plans.
Regarding future visits to Dr Chang clinic.
as advised by Dr Chang i will be going for next session 15thJuly, there after August, October, January, April and every 3 months there after until further notice.
I will try keep you abreast of all my movements ;-)

signing off for now.
wishing you safe travels and good health!
xox

well, it's been 3 weeks since my last post and here i am, back, once again, in New York.

I am going to see Dr Chang tomorrow 5pm for round 4.

I think i maybe more nervous than i realise as i cant sleep and am awake in the middle of the night - may also be a touch of jet-lag ;-)

Stuart, the sweetie he is, is once again accompanying me to the Dr and playing nurse on my recovery after - each time i have a different reaction, so time will tell how this one goes.

We have made plans to meet Stuarts partner Chen in a few days after Dr appointment, so as to have a short excursion away to relax and unwind (tentative Vegas, yee ha!) soooo looking forward to this little distraction as i feel it will absorb me away from focusing too much on this vaccine. i will write and let you know how all is going and the immediate effects after.

btw, this month has been remarkably good, and i am still sticking to my NO caffeine, meat, dairy, alcohol, diet and am feeling remarkable well from it. I eat / drink as much organic as possible and am also still taking 'winter worm summer grass' supplements which gives me great energy ;-)

am being positive and trying to do gentle exercise each day.

it is with sadness that i would like to especially send a hug to all of those who lost friends / family members this month, i can really feel your pain and send you a very big warm hug. Thank you for sharing and please know that i am always here to listen.

wishing you all good health!

big big big hugs

LOVE YOU!

nic

xox

 

ME, Dr Nesselhut (behind) Dr Chang (on right)

(Dr Chang with syringe in hand, me nervously smiling ha ha)

Dr Changs clinic

clinic and address - in New York


"Immunotherapy may be one of the only ways left to deal with cancer. We’ve gone as far as we can with chemotherapy," says oncologist Herman Kattlove, an editor for the American Cancer Society. With few new drugs coming out, he says, "chemotherapy is sort of a dead area..." With dendritic cells, "what convinced me is that we saw responses," says Dr. Levy (Stanford University). -- New Weapon in Cancer War. The Wall Street Journal, May 23, 2003: B1.

round3- 3rd time lucky ;-)

I know it has been a while and a few have asked how things went. I would like to apologise for the delay in writing but as the expression goes "no news, is good news" ;-)
The third session seems to have worked a charm - after initial hesitation.
I arrived in NYC, settled in to my hotel a day before my session, and had a nice relaxing time channel surfing the 100+ TV channels and ordering the organic yummy foods through room service (I love the USA for this! they know all about the extremities - fast food + overzealous health food, all delivered by a quick phone call!)
April 22nd @ 5pm, my friend Steph escorted me to the Meridian Medical Clinic, where a warm friendly receptionist greeted me, and where I patiently waited my turn to see Dr Chang.
There are a quite a few of us doing Dentriatic cell vaccine at the same time, so seems the Drs were busy that day!
I was wonderfully welcomed by Dr Nesselhut (who brought the cells over from Germany) and Dr Chang (who administered them) it was like greeting two old friends again ;-)
Dr Chang administers the injections slightly differently, after the first injection (remember, there are two each time) he then paused and waited for a few minutes (felt like 10mins but waiting for needles always drags on... was probably only 3mins....ha ha) we chatted, and then he administered the second injection. All smoothly and swiftly. Thereafter, I then settled the bill and left back to my hotel.
I felt light headed a few hours later so took painkillers and a sleeping pill and slept right through to the next morning, where upon I woke feeling refreshed and fine!
I was actually amased at how good I felt as the previous two vaccines I had been feeling feverish, weak +ill for a few days after...it felt like a very bad case of flu. I resolved myself to the fact it was the vaccine working ;-)
Therefore, this time, the next day, I got up and decided to go and do some sightseeing - how to be in New York and not be a tourist! ;-)
I did the 'open bus' tour one day and a helicopter tour the next day (HIGHLY recommended!)
There was only one thing I had a concern about, I cried ALL the time. The slightest thing would set me off and I would be weepy. I felt really silly by e second day so contacted Dr Chang regarding it.
He claims it was not a symptom of the vaccine so it was either one of two things - hormonal (I had stopped taking HRT a month prior to starting this) or I was suffering depression, or both!
During these last few months, I have been looking hard into my persona, seeking answers deep into my soul and trying to find out the core root of all these things. I believe in the fact that our mind controls our body and that we have to have a strong healthy mind to heal the rest of our being. I also believe our body can manifest ailments that are unresolved issues.
I certainly have been peeling back the layers and facing truths + facts that I had hidden so deep down that even I was scared to face them. I claim I have ‘forgiven’ but as I had not forgotten them but instead just pushed them further away deep inside, I had not really resolved them. Since, acknowledging this, I have stopped crying but now seem to have a slight twitch in my eye. I know this is just from the nerves of coming to reality of what was, and finding a way to let go and live what is.
(Yes, I know, all very ‘heavy’. I will not bore nor shock you with any of it but needless to say, I will come to terms with it somehow and will venture forward)
On a positive note, I feel grateful to be blessed for the life I have today - I live each day in abundance, am showered in the radiance of love by my daughter and friends, and give thanks for the life I get to lead.
I am not a victim of my past but a maker of my own destiny!

I have arrived back to Singapore in great spirits and feel more positive and energetic than I’ve felt in quite a while.
Is it third time a charm? ;-)
I have not confirmed with the Dr's how many more I have to go through – am I half way there? (Tentatively we talked about 4-6 sessions but still unconfirmed) All I know is, I am beginning to feel optimistic about my future.
Once again, thank you Dr Nesselhut and Dr Chang for aiding me on this path!

On an alternative note –
Unfortunately, due to the Swine Flu epidemic I have cancelled my trip to the Gerson Institute in Mexico, for obvious reasons of the location ;-( I am trying to live my life the Gerson way as much as possible i.e. organic organic organic - lots of juices, vegetarian foods, no processed products etc. Nevertheless, I would like to actually go to the Gerson Institute when it becomes viable.
BTW, quick plug to a wonderful company here in Singapore that distributes the organic juices (Gerson believe if the fruits+veg are not juiced correctly you lose most of the nutrients. This company follows the Gerson juicing technique and distributes them accordingly) www.wildbunchandcompany.com

In addition, I wanted to briefly talk about the current stock exchange listing of "Dendreon"
(in answer to some questions)
in 'layman' terms - i.e. 'nicki talk' the Dendreon drug listed on the stock exchange last month is not released for the public use yet, they are raising capital to manufacture it, nor is it the same drug as what I am using.
Dendreon, is a 'one drug fits all' type of cancer vaccine, where as the Dendritic cell 'vaccine' I am currently undergoing is specifically 'tailor made' for each patients cancer type.
The current vaccine I am utilising is very time consuming to manufacture as Dr Nesselhut personally tailors the cells accordingly to each patient and cancer type as well as personally over sees each administration.
*pls note, I am NOT a doctor, nor scientist, so if I have miss-quoted pls email me, or leave a note here if it is different to this. Alternatively contact Dr Chang in New York or Dr Nesselhut in Europe for more info*

Hope this covers everything asked ;-)

I am feeling positive and welcoming with open arms all those wonderful vibes being sent this way!
Moreover, i am sending loving vibrations out your way too!
*feel the vibe* he he

Hugs and speak to you again soon
Nic

xox

apologies.....

I just wanted to log in to say hi and give you an update of what has been going on. After a wonderfully relaxing week in Phuket, unfortunately, I returned to Singapore to suffer an abscess in my cheek and it made my whole side of my face swell. I felt like 'elephant woman'! It coincided with my planned Hong Kong trip so as soon as I landed off the plane I fled to the Dr. He drained as much as he could - I was told to fully drain I would have to be put under General Anaesthesia and it was not worth the risk. Now I'm on a course of antibiotics so as the infection doesn't get worse and crossing fingers + toes that it gets better soon. (I'm also sky high on painkillers...)
I think my vanity gets the better of me sometimes and I have taken to hiding till the swelling has completely gone (Dr's estimate approx one week or so...) however i did venture to meet some girlfriends today whom I want to say a BIG thank you to, for keeping my mood elevated and spirits up. I want to apologise for my mood swings of late- I think its cause my body is in over drive to fight this infection, in turn draining my energy. sorry sorry sorry to those whose heads I’ve chewed off *oops*
I also wish to apologise for not seeing friends on my brief visit to HK also but as you now know it was mostly spend with Drs...
On a lighter note.......I am very optimistic of my upcoming trip on Monday to New York ;-)
If there is any one else around I could do with the company (and perhaps some sightseeing)
No bars or club hoping though!!!
My appointment with Dr Chang is Tuesday 22nd April and I am looking forward to seeing him and meeting his team. This journey to New York will be a positive and fruitful adventure ;-)One I am positive about.
Well, that is all for now my dears.
As always, I am sending you all hugs and welcoming in those positive vibes
Love and kisses
Nic
xox

Vaccine 2

well, what can i say.
I want to remain positive and tell you all went well but i also do not want to lie to you.
My second trip was very difficult for me.
I am not sure if it was partially because i chose to go on my own - i thought as the first was OK to endure that i would not need assistance or company on the second trip because it would be such a brief trip - oh how wrong i was!
After my experience, i really do urge you to have company when going through this. even if only for the moral support.
I arrived ok and checked into the same hotel as before - Zum Lowen. unfortunately, my suite was not available so they gave me a different room, which was equally as nice - bright airy and had a little terrace. i could actually get wifi here too (unlike previous trip)
I settled in and slept soundly ready for my big morning the following day.
I went to the Clinic and met with Dr Nesselhut (Jnr) discussing all option for the further vaccines.
FYI i have been given the option to continue this treatment programme in New York and have decided to take it. New York maybe further away to travel too but i will feel closer to a 'city' ambiance that makes my blood and soul pulsate ;-)
(although Duderstadt is charming, i really do feel the extremely slow relaxing pace a little TOO slow for me....i'm a city girl by heart)
Anyway, i got my jabs at approx 1pm Monday 30th March and then went for a brief walk after to purchase water and snacks to consume in my room.
At approx 4pm i thought i had been knocked over by a sledge hammer!
Luckily i had already changed into my pajamas and was resting on my bed watching a movie when i suddenly started to shake.
I climbed under the covers but it didn't seem to help. i then proceeded to wrap myself in two layers of quilts and woollen blankets. It all happened so fast. i started to shake, then a rush of pain to my pelvic area suddenly over whelmed me, quite literally taking my breath away. The pain felt like it was moving up my back then i suddenly felt like my head was about to explode! it was horrendous.
i can assure you it did not feel like this the first time round.
i was so shocked. it was all happening so quickly too.
i managed to stumble to get my wash bag from the bathroom, extracting my painkillers, which i took along with a sleeping pill and literally drugged myself to sleep.
the next morning i awoke almost as if it were a dream - with exception of my damp sheets from the night sweats.
i slowly and groggily returned phone calls and drank copious amounts of fluids to ensure i was not dehydrated. Then slept most of that day + night.
Wednesday morning i packed and headed back to the airport.
It was a brief and memorable experience.

I am now in Thailand with friends and family preparing for my next trip in a few weeks to New York for round three.
This time, i have made it obvious to friends i would be most grateful of the company.

I know most of this is 'psychosomatic' and having a positive attitude is what gets us all through a day of hell, once in a while we all have a bad one, and this i think was a little worse than even i was prepared for. I am psyching myself up for round three and am optimistic with the wonderful company of Dr Chang giving me the vaccine and my friends walking this path with me (easy to find friends to join me in NY as apposed to sleepy-ville duderstatd ha ha!) i know with all my trip is bound to be a success ;-)
Don't get me wrong, i believe in my heart that the last trip was also successful but i just wish it weren't so painful.
I have been advised next time, to take the pain medications immediately after the shots not waiting until feeling the effects ;-)

well, that's it for today i think. tiring even writing this ;-)
you'll be happy to know I've been walking up and down the beach getting my daily exercise (when weather permits- now rain season in Thailand but still a delight to be here) am also eating healthy and drinking my coconut juice every day ;-)

sending love and hope your week ahead is filled with love and laughter!
will write again soon
I LOVE YOU
nicki
xox

arrival in Duderstadt (2)

I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason - hits hard sometimes and other times I feel this is the only thing that keeps me going, knowing there will be a silver lining or by sharing my experience some-one else can benefit.

Well, today on the aeroplane coming over from Singapore to Frankfurt I decided to skip watching the usual blockbuster movies and surf through the 'documentary' section (thank you SQ for such great in-flight entertainment system!)
Anyway, there was a show titled 'food matters' and as I am on a new food routine my curiosity peaked. Well, my choice was for good reason too! what came on has left a haunting impact!
I want to share with this link to visit www.foodmatters.tv
In the 'film' (I actually thought it was an episode of a series) it has several world acclaimed 'nutritionist' talking about how food affects us, and how they found vitamins and organic food can cure cancer! watching it was incredible.
Dr Raymond Chang (whom I consult in N.Y.) and I have has this conversation in depth about supplements aiding those doing Chemo etc (and this is also what he practises - East West alternatives) but now it truly has 'hit home' to me.
Even those of you who don’t have cancer and just want to feel better, I would highly recommend watching it!
Did you know Vitamin C can elevate your mood? (may explain why I feel better after consuming Berocca) and they claim on the show it can also cure cancer - when used intravenously. I really would love to talk to some-one who has been through this!
They also suggest the following
Studies have shown, when patients are using both conventional therapy (chemotherapy, radiation and surgery)and using nutrition and high doses of nutrients, the results were as follows:• People on chemotherapy did not lose their appetite• Hair loss was reduced or hair loss not experienced altogether• People did not have nausea

They discuss it a lot further in the movie.
They also talk to Charlotte Gerber, whose father started the Gerber Institute, which I’ve discussed briefly earlier, where they have also shown HUGE leaps in how our diet can aid good health.
I know this may sound like common sense but how often do we actually heed to it?
They recommend that at every meal, at least 51% of your meal should be RAW (yes, trust me, it is very difficult to do - in-flight meals don’t really cater to that thinking!!)
I'm still thinking about everything they said and it resonates loudly.
I know I’m definitely going to look into this further ;-) I hope you do the same!

I still can’t stop thinking about it!!!!
Anyway, I’m here now in Duderstadt, back at my usual hotel Zum Lowen and counting the hours down till my second vaccine tomorrow.

I really miss you all and want to send you all a very big hug.
May Monday bring light love and joy into your day!
Wishing good health and signing off for now
All my love
Nicki
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